Friday, September 16, 2005

d for defense

Walk home with me, Lord
to Your paradise, Your glory


half awake in the morning i heard chanting "glory... glory... send your glory".. serious.. it's soft, but many voices. is my brain not in complete circuit yet.. no idea. but it sure is warming. promised myself to study today.. must keep my words.

ok.. there's something wrong with my determination. it's 6pm and i've yet to really sit down and study.. disappointed.. just returned from watching 'the longest yard'. extremely funny.. kinda crude. then ate at 313, had kopi c again.. and the weather is on our side. started raining. strange climate these days.
every time rain falls, it draws my attention to think of her.. hey what does she gotta do with rain. can't really describe her in words.. just having a crush on her makes me wanna be better each day. more loving, more patience bla bla bla. and weirdly i began speaking english more than chinese (ok nothing to do with being better). i know.. i know.. Jesus is the reason we change. yes guys God develops His foundation in us, and is strengthening it each day. this crush is impacting... i'm in focus: truly i love God not because of her. but she made an example of herself i wanna learn from.. and ironically established affection and attraction. wouldn't want to engage with too much thoughts of her. a reminder of my time and energy reserved for God. Holy spirit, show me Your will.

posted by ZaiQian @ 12:43:00 PM